These days, I'm stuck in a spiraling vortex fueled by lack of faith in myself and stubborn negativity. It has been a while since any good news arrived and as a freelancer it is not hard to start questioning everything. Such is the extent of this latest struggle with my self-imposed circumstances, that I have considered taking a permanent break from my dreams. Nothing new, really. I guess it's the nature of the chosen adventure. But the question of how long it will take to propel myself out of this whirlpool haunts me now more than in past struggles. It's time to get practical.
Let's see, a global recession is affecting most every person since last year. Then there is the saying of making lemonade when one gets lemons. Perhaps using the tools at hand to overcome is also in order. So what if from time to time one gets stuck in an apparent vicious circle? Why not use the metaphor of the spiral instead? Sure, the lateral direction may seem repetitive, but maybe it is at a new level. In short, isn't it all about choosing how to see?
The photograph above, taken in 2004 at my old Washington DC flat, makes me think of a dancer. Except this dancer is making the very music she dances to.
Time to make some music and dance! And quite frankly, there is much to get done before giving it up.
More soon, promised.